Friends

I always feel so guilty when I am with my friends and my adhd wanna come out. I interrupts their conversations and sometimes I get a feeling that I NEED to touch them or say a word repeatedly (right now it’s just bep) until they get tired of me and says to me that I need to shut up. Often when this happens we are at school and they are trying to focus. I know I did wrong but when they say that I did I always get offended and sad. So then I won’t talk or be “happy” in 30 minutes or so. After that I feel like “normal” again and I can do my task and after another 30 minutes I need to do something impulsive again. I just feel so bad for my friends and everyone around me. I know that adhd is normal but it’s not “the normal” if you know what i mean. And these friends I have now is my first friends that don’t have adhd or other diagnoses so it’s very new for me to feel like “the wierd one” bcs me and my old friends are all “wierd”. I just wanted to ramble I’m sorry 🤘