Reflecting on yesterday

If this is a common and frequent experience, it is possible that a psychiatric service dog can really help. A task trained dog can actually prevent emotional breakdowns or reduce the time you experience them. As a professional service dog trainer and owner, my social anxiety and fear of traveling by myself, and emotional meltdowns were reduced by more than half. I also used to experience panic attacks and I haven’t had one since my dog became fully trained. Maybe look into one and check out trainers that potentially train a pet you already have. A pre trained dog can be $10,000 to $50,000 dollars. If you have your one dog trained it can be around $3,000 to $5,000, paid over the course of 1 to 3 years.

Another thought on what you wrote : sometimes, it’s easier to just let your emotions go ; to let them « have their way » with you, and let yourself just FEEL them. Trying to control them kind of make them « act up » against you, and mess with your brain, going on and on and on. I think that’s the difference between controlling emotions and managing them… I remember when I was a kid, the adults were always full of judgemental comments when I just wanted to sulk : sulking IS a way to just « digest » your emotions and manage them ; I take extra care now that nobody (grand-parents, etc.) prevents my children from « sulking in peace » 😁 Don’t mind the hurtful comments when you’re processing your feelings : just let yourself feel and be, no matter what your parents or anybody else tell you…

Hi, I’m sorry you were feeling so sad and angry… 🥺🫶 And feeling like you can’t confide in anyone is very hard, I’ve had this feeling too in my life and I remember it was very difficult… You will most certainly find « your people » in the future - the one(s) that will be here for you when life is hard - but in the meantime, maybe you could find help with a therapist ?… I don’t know where you live, I guess it can be very expensive in some places… Or maybe an association ? It can be a mental health association where you will meet people who struggle with their own mental health issues, or another kind of association entirely, where you will meet new people, and maybe provide help for people in need - it’s said that helping others can help oneself get better ?…

I started in a class on stoicism which is helping a lot. I’m also going to try CPT. We CAN literally change our minds! Hang in there 😊