Anyone Else feel like just when they reach their healthiest and happiest they self sabotage. Binge eaten and isolated for 3 days now because I’m emotionally disregulated and think no one likes me. Why am I only coming to my senses now when I least want to be seen in public
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Since I’ve finally reached the right dosage of my meds this now happens less. But before the meds I was in that same vicious cycle that I just couldn’t get out of. I was diagnosed late in life at 53 so for the majority of my life I lived a complete shit 💩 show. I guess I am finally acting like an adult and not an out of control teenager.
It’s not just a feeling, our brains are programmed for survival and therefore hate change, because what we did so far at least kept us alive. What was probably a smart feature for cavemen, isn’t always all that helpful in modern times though 🤷🏼♂️🙈 but you can overcome it, it just needs attention (you already got this) and work. One of my favorite books on this topic is Unf*ck Yourself by Gary John Bishop. His tough love approach comes from his own experience with the topic and is very helpful for ADHDers imho. If you like audiobooks, he narrates this himself with his Scottish accent and a great sense of humor. You’ve got this 💪🏻🍀🔥
Oh my God, I felt this, but I didn’t have the words to express what I felt. Thank you. I feel the same way.
Totally feel you. That self-sabotage loop is the worst, it’s like your mind can’t handle the peace it asked for. When I’m in that space, I try to stop thinking about the big picture and just do one kind thing for myself like a shower, a meal, a walk, anything that moves me back toward feeling human again. It passes, even when it doesn’t feel like it will. I’m proud of you ;)
