yes, I do. it’s hard to reach out one more time to person who did some kind of rejection to me. even if not intentionally just coincidence, like he/she is just busy that day, it’s still hard for me. cognitively I understands how this is weird, but I just don’t want to be rejected ane more time.
very much so, yes. I'm constantly asking people if I'm already getting on their nerves, if they feel ashamed of my quirkyness in public, I'm afraid people don't actually like me, I hardly ever ask friends out cause I assume they have better things to do and will call me up if they've got nothing better to do 🥹 I have two operating modes: either not giving a fuck about it and withstand the cruel feelings as I know they are only in my brain chemistry, OR strictly isolate from people I feel reject me 🥲