Psycho Soup

So I got diagnosed with BPD when I was 40 while I was in a relationship with an emotional terrorist of a covert narcissist. More recently, I finally made the connection that I'm definitely AuDHD with lots of co-morbidities from a lot of the cluster B spectrum and no shortage of abandonment and betrayal trauma from being repeatedly breadcrumbed and discarded by my ex. I moved up North to get away from her and she followed me up there and caused me to lose my job. When I got back here to FL, I discovered that she slandered me on social media by changing the rules of engagement without telling me about it. That caused all types of damage and how I figured out that I most likely have some sort of Obsessive Personality Disorder because I could not let it go. I removed anyone who stayed friends with her which was just about everyone. She effectively made me the monster in everyone else's eyes. Even my Mom and Sister won't have anything to do with me. I'm isolated and at complete rock bottom financially. I make art and music. That's basically how I survive but work has been slow and I'm so behind from being tortured for the past 5 years. Life is hard and I'm trying to rebuild a life that isn't pointless and doesn't feel hopeless. I've got a long, long way to go because it's pretty dark at this point in time. You can find my social media accounts at https://linktr.ee/kahtnipp My personal website is at https://kahtnipp.art but my brain has been so uncooperative, it doesn't look or act anything like I'd like it to but it does accept stripe and crypto payments. Thank you for reading. Feel free to reach out or hire me. More art can be found at https://deviantart.com/kahtnipp/gallery