Self harm

I can’t regulate or cope with my endless days of work. I work hard for my family. All of my children have AUDHD some more severe than others. And I live with my mother whom is also AUDHD. She’s in heart failure. My husband lives here too, he’s a police officer, but is on temporary disability for arthritis. I do everything. Dr appts, medication, child care, cooking, cleaning, waking the kids up for school, taking them to school, and picking them up. My husband, whom ik is in a lot of pain, sits all day everyday and does absolutely nothing. I have severe lupus and psoriasis and this stress is making me flare so bad. So I hurt too but I don’t stop I keep doing what needs to be done. Because if I don’t no one will and I can’t live like that. So it makes me angry and stressed at my family. Then I feel terrible for feeling that way about them and then it makes me feel like I’m a bad person and I want to punish myself. Why can’t I make these thoughts stop????

squirrelAF

I would suggest having some boundaries with your family. I absolutely understand feeling like you must do everything bc nobody else can/will. However I have found in my own life that if I develop boundaries and say I’m sorry but I can no longer do that for you anymore, you would be surprised how many people suddenly are able to take on the responsibility themselves when you politely lay out the boundary that you are no longer going to be doing XY or Z for them anymore. Even the people who love us and we love back can take advantage of us doing everything for them. Do what you absolutely have to do, then quit doing some of the other things and express your expectations of others to contribute more. You literally can not do everything. Make peace with than then give your family the option of the other things either being done by them or not being done at all and see if they step up. It can be a healthy growing experience for everyone involved.

tararolo

I tried to comment but not sure if it went through so sorry if this is a repeat. You have a lot more on your plate than most people so you’re doing incredibly managing even half of what you have to. Is there any way you can carve out an hour each day for some self care activities?

KatyMc

Ooh gosh what a tough situation 💕 I see you and I hear you.. life must feel like it’s going a hundred miles an hour but you’re still never getting anywhere.. I truly wish that I had some advice or something.. I suppose if I were to write a post like yours, what would you say to me? 😊

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