Lately I've been suffering from depression. Let's just say that the need to be perfect, to have everything planned out and at the same time everything messed up, to have dreams and not be able to see things through to the end have done a lot more damage than I expected. Is anyone else like this?
I have anxiety because of my perfectionism VS my ADHD (and let’s say it, because the world is a crazy place : all is not ADHD fault, there is sooo much things that are not normal going on). I find that class gym help me a lot !!! I go every week and try not skip the class twice in a row for accountability. It is really great for my depression and anxiety !
In periods my whole life (since ~12 to now - I'm 35). For me antidepressants in combination with stimulants have worked pretty well. Also having a calendar and a todo list, and not hitting yourself when you feel worse and don't have the energy to keep up with routines (including said calendar etc). I've done a lot of different CBT, but it rarely sticks once the therapy is over. This is probably highly subjective though and different things work for different people.
I can relate to the inability to follow through on processes big time. Recently ended an 8 week slump slacking on some important stuff, what kicked me out of that weird paralyzed state were clear conversations about what was going on with the people connected to those neglected tasks
I struggle with the feeling of not seeing things through to the end. Sometimes I realize however I wanted it to go faster and actually it’s ok if my projects take longer and I pick them up again. I have tried to remind myself of the things I have finished if I am down with how things are currently.
So relate to everything you wrote. I was late diagnosed, so for the whole life I couldn’t succeed in almost every aspect in life without knowing why, this developed me depression and anxiety until I was diagnosed, started to take medication and with therapy, I’m a much better version of myself now, but there’s still much much to work on. The ADHD created my anxiety, and they both fed each other.
It feels like you’re having a rly bad time in ur head, I’m not sure if I’m exactly like that but I feel you… wanna talk about it? Why do u have the need to be perfect?
Hopefully you'll get better soon and find your inner strength and calm! I had the same mother issue and had to go through therapy and years of reflection to deal with that. Summarizing everything for you (in the hopes it might help): It's all about you now and allowing you to be the voice of support. We often look up to our parents for love and validation. As adults we can truly let go of that and give us the permission to feel proud of what we do and how far we already have come. Just like you! ✨
Damn yeah that sounds rly tough… I knew someone with a mother kinda like that too… how have you been dealing with it? I rly hope you can break through your depression :)
I was brought up by a narcissistic mother who put all the tasks on me, and every time I finished them she would somehow manage to take away the value of what had been done or say that I was worthless. That being the case, I think it's plausible that I developed such pressure.
