i cant clean
I need help. I need DRASTIC help. I have had a depression home for way over two years now. It’s not like a hoarder home, because i do pick up random stuff sometimes, and sometimes I’ll grab a trash bag and pick up random pieces of trash around my place. but thats it. My home has clothes ALL over the place, hobby stuff laying on the floor and tables, all my tables are actually full so I cant put anything on it except if i pile stuff on it. i cant hire a professional cleaner because due to my mental health i cant work so I have basically no money. I dont know what to do. Theres visual noise everywhere, i cant stop freaking out and crying when I get out of bed. sometime i just wont because i dont wanna face the mess. Please. Anyone, help me. I need tips, words of encouragement, motivation, ANYTHING, i have no irl friends, and all my online friends have drifted away, and i am estranged from my family, so I seriously am alone in this. It’s basically just been me and my own mind and self for a really long time— and it’s really starting to get to me. please please, help me