Yryan avatar
Yryan
14
1 year ago

Depression and anxiety

I really am trying to get stuff organized. I just have so much coming at me. I have several mental health issues, PTSD being one of the biggest ones.. All of it is important, all of it needs to get done.. and I have only so many spoons.. I just feel really overwhelmed right now.. There was a time I could have powered through all this.. but well getting older sucks sometimes (though it beats the alternative). I hate the days that I end up so overloaded I end up without words. It feels so.. isolated I guess? Bit like being on the Moon. Can't breathe, can't talk, everything and everyone is there but it all feels so far away, and every word has that tip of the tongue feeling, like it is *just* out of reach.. and I end up surrounded in silence.. My kid is autistic. He asks me how to deal with exactly these moments.. and I don't have any answers for him.. almost half a century, and I have no better way to handle it than he does.. :(

 avatar
12mo

I feel you. I lost my handicapped son in 2018. I also have multiple psychiatric disorders to struggle with. At 51 I have started therapy to try and get my issues under control but it sure as hell isn’t easy. I’ve just gotten to the point that my coping mechanism aren’t working for me anymore so I had to do something because the only other option is to just not be here anymore. Thankfully I didn’t choose the latter option! Because my head goes there sometimes too. I’ve been lucky enough so far, because it terrifies me that I think about it at all. I’m much harder on myself than I am on anyone else. Struggling to find the slightest bit of self worth/love…one day at a time! I wish you much success, just don’t give up!

Yryan avatar
Yryan
1y

I was trying to add a picture of Earth from the Moon.. but I don't know what I'm doing wrong here.. oh well...

Add comment