jirouzadie avatar
jirouzadie
3
11 months ago

My vent

I’m so tired of my body,my body is in constant physical and mental pain to the point that I actually feel like I have no choice but to die.My body doesn’t even feel like “my” body it just feels like I was shoved into this body without warning. I have medications I take to help my depression,anxiety and ADHD but they don’t work.I feel more anxious and depressed then ever,my mind is feels like it’s melting slowly,slowly making me suffer and ache. I try to explain what I feel to people who want to help and understand me but every time I do they still don’t understand,I even tell them multiple times but once I understand that they will never get it I give up and don’t try to explain anymore,I am not going to force someone to understand. I had a talk with “someone” and they were telling a lot of things about how I’m not the only one struggling and that I’m going though a phase and that I should get over it.My feeling are not a “phase” it’s how I’ve felt for so long but barely put it out so they could see.I hated that conversation,they made me guilty about my emotions. This is ever the surface of what I wanted to say but I’m to “lazy” to write anymore

jellybeanqueen avatar
jellybeanqueen
9mo

This reminds me of what my life was like before being diagnosed with fibromyalgia. It was such a long and difficult journey for me to get a proper diagnosis, but once I did get a proper diagnosis I was able to join my local chronic pain program and that program changed my life. I have half as much pain now, so much more mobility, and a better relationship with my son because I can actually play with him at the park now, and I can get him to school on time most days. You deserve health and happiness. It’s such a struggle to get there when you add ADHD and depression to the mix, but I promise you deserve it. Take baby steps every day. It’s ok to not be okay all the time, but doing at least one thing each day to move yourself forward with your health will eventually get you to where you need to be. Sending you a big hug.

mellistar avatar
mellistar
11mo

You’re not alone…I feel so tired as well.

sheldok2 avatar
sheldok2
11mo

😢 I went through a mental health crisis about six months ago and participated in a partial hospitalization program (PHP). I was then diagnosed with ADHD, in addition to previously diagnosed chronic headaches, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, and major depressive disorder. I totally get feeling frustrated by my body and low energy. Suicidal ideation was the reason I took part in the PHP. I now know that thoughts themselves are not dangerous - it’s how we react to the thought. For me, recognizing the thought, validating my feelings, and working with a therapist, have been very helpful. My therapist specializes in cognitive and dialectic behavioral therapy (CBT/DBT). The coping skills I’ve learned have helped tremendously. Sending positive vibes!

saylz avatar
saylz
11mo

Hi J- I’m so sorry you’re going through this. No one should have to feel this way! There’s no one like you, and even if it may not feel like it, you are loved! At least by me ❤️ I’m grateful to know I wasn’t alone during the times I’ve felt the way you’re feeling now. I wanted to not be alive because I was exhausted and feeling hopeless that nothing would get better or change. What helped me was starting by reaching out to friends just to tell them that I was NOT doing ok. Then I told my doctor. Then I decided to go back to therapy. It turns out, my body chemistry was out of whack, so was my nutrition, and I wasn’t getting the right kind of exercise for my body. I also wasn’t sleeping well and that made all the other things worse. It took time and some trial and error, but things started getting better. I’m glad you’re here in this community and I hope you keep sharing because I think you probably have a lot of insight and experience to share. Love, Your friend Saylz

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ameliabjorn
11mo

I understand the constant physical pain and being tired of your own body; lately, I feel super conscious about my body (and it’s not about body image) to the point I have an impression that I'm breathing too loud 💀 I have anxiety/ADHD meds and they seem to work plus I started my diagnosis with endometriosis, and it seems like the physical pain can be related to that. Fingers crossed for your journey!

ohmu. avatar
ohmu.
11mo

Are you in pain because of anxiety or is it something more physically? I'm just wondering since ADHD with comorbid fibromyalgia is quite common. I'm with you though, life is really hard. Don't listen to people taking energy rather than giving.

sheldok2 avatar
sheldok2
11mo

I didn’t realize that ADHD and fibromyalgia were related. Good to know as I have both!

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