This is a lot of days late but…. Oh man!! This year I was just not into the “Christmas Spirit”. I bought the things for my 4 year old (and sort of for myself… HELLO LEGO 😆) and totally forgot to get things for others.
I had a really been in such a deep depression that I honestly didn’t care. I kept apologizing to my son about me being sad and asked if it was okay that I didn’t put up a tree. Of course, having the spirit of his dad in him, he told me it would be fine. I seemed to try some days by putting out a little bit but it took all of my energy.
But by falling into the guilty pressure of my mom and FIL, I put up a tree on the 23rd. I put this tree up and my son decorated it but it looked super weird. I just put it in my head that I was just tired and my 💊💊 had kicked in. The next morning, it still didn’t look right. Apparently, my mother (half of the guilty pressure team), had taken out the trees I had in my bag (1 for the living room & 1 tiny one for my kiddo’s room) and somehow mixed up all of my trees with hers 🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
She had to bring me her bag of trees, so I could play a game of which tree goes with that one. On Christmas Eve, I took down one tree, put up my tree, decorated and put my final answers to the tree game back in her bag 😮💨😮💨😮💨 Then, I had to go to the store to, last minute, purchase tiny things for others. I came home and had to wrap ALL of my gifts, get ready for Santa and make sure I didn’t forget his treats, AGAIN 😭
Christmas Day seemed rushed having to drive everywhere to celebrate with everyone. Then, we had family come from out of town that I had to see so we could celebrate. As of today, my energy and my budget are still completely lacking!!! BUYING THINGS ARE SO FUN 🤩