At night, when the effect of medications it's out. I ask myself a lot about if life have sense. How do you feel? Like not dying, but like super down
Fuck no. And being that I just downloaded this app this vibe is giving very much counter productive
Please seek help if you feel this way often. Passive thoughts of death are very normal and suicidal thoughts are normal, especially when chronically overwhelmed. There are meds and help and this feeling wonāt last forever. Be gentle with yourself and call the National suicide hotline whenever you feel the desire to talk to someone about this.
I feel for you! There was a long period of my life not long ago that I wanted to die everyday. All I can say is, if you continue to seek help while in this dark place ā there is hope for a future free of suicidal ideation. You are not alone.
Not to be rude, but this has been the first thing I see on my feed every day and i just want to ask if thereās a purposeā¦ likeā¦ and I mean this genuinely and there is no attitude tied to itā¦ but was it for attention or were you seeking support? If so were you asking for coping skills? Because so far itās become a long list of people who feel they want to unalive. And I can just tell you by someone who exists in modern day earth that if I just look around that yes. Everyone wants to die. lol. Nowā¦ how do we get a new feedā¦
Not everyday but every other day I do wonder what it would be like for all the noises/emotions would cease
Well sorta. I just had a baby or my gf did. At the same time my landlord evicted us illegally on the due date. Go public assistance to put us in a motel. But they wonāt keep us here long. But Iām really sad cause I also lost my career job several months ago and just been working labour gigs trying to get by. Iām always broke and been selling off my more possessions but I donāt have much to begin with. Tonight we found bed bug bites or mite bites on my precious daughter. My gf the mother of my child has autism but isnāt diagnosed and is super mean to me at times cause she never got the training to emotionally regulate herself. So she says really hurtful things that put me into a darker place and since she also has abandonment issues I never get to see my friends cause sheās always hounding me. I feel like hell on the best days cause a small misstep I do in front of her I get yelled at. I hate saying Iām a nice guy but I always have people telling me so and that I should probably leave her for my own sanity. Ever since I met her my life has actually been getting worse. I love her though when sheās sweet to me but I hate her so much when she isnāt. I want to leave her and split the parenting duties and that will eventually happen if she doesnāt get her emotional abusive ways in check.
You have a lot on your plate! Congratulations on your beautiful baby! Being a new parent is so hard in even the best of circumstances, my heart goes out to you and your family. I wish I could offer a magic solution but I donāt have one, I just wanted to tell you not to give up on yourself, that little girl will only see you as a superhero for many more years, I bet you already have a plan in your head you just have to clear the noise to see it. And way down the line, this will be a story you share with her about resilience and determination when she is struggling in her own way. Your struggle is uniquely yours but youāre not alone
I lost my sense of purpose and I asked every day if I could please just stop breathing. That thought isn't there every day anymore. Some days are a struggle. I call my daughter on those days, she keeps me grounded. Do something you have consciously been avoiding. It helps remind you that you can do whatever you want to, when you want to do it. xo
I have PMDD as well, so I definitely used to. Awhile ago someone suggested low dose Lithium supplements and I honestly haven't been casually suicidal in months
Iāve had some of those days. For me, itās usually when I overthink a situation and then mope for days about it. Then, itās just stupid, because it was something I was thinking that never happened or wasnāt that bad. Why do we do that?? Like over exaggerate a situation to a point of no return and then a couple of days later, I can clearly see it was nothing. Ugh
Hey. So yeah. Iāve got SZA on top of everything else. And I hallucinate my ending twice a day, morning and night, since I was 4. Sometimes I do it. Sometimes someone else does it. Some days itās a minor annoyance, sometimes itās fuel. But I make it through despite my desires. Do I believe I HAVE to keep living. No. Life doesnāt have the same meaning it did when our lifeline and way of life was by the earth and her cycles. I stay alive for my pup and two kittens. I see how they get when I leave for an hour. I can only imagine how theyād be if I just never came back. I find many joys in life. Because there are many to find. And use my pain and personal terror, as fuel to be a source of Love and Kindness in a world that offers so little of it. ā¤ļø I wish you strength, self compassion, a return to nature, and art. ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
Feel for youā¦. Have you tried different healing modalities and do any help. Iāve been diving into some really cool stuff recentlyā¦ I know they say you canāt fix it but you might be able to understand a little bit more why this is happened to you. Through that maybe thereās ļæ¼ triggers youāve never noticed before. Anyways, Have you heard on past life regression therapy/hypnosis? Look up Dolores cannon or dr joe dispenza. Super interesting stuff. ļæ¼ Everyone should read the convoluted universe.
I have had different stages in my life and survived them all. If you have these feelings I wish I could give you a big hug because i have been there. Please stay positive š Dark thoughts come and they go. What makes you happy?
I don't necessarily want to die but feel that I would be content if I did. Life is really hard and exhausting. I know it may seem selfish to say but their is always someone that will be destroyed when one ends their life. I know this first hand after losing my son this year. Even when it feels like there is no hope, I promise you there is. No one knows what tomorrow will bring and you are always loved.
I am sorry about your son. Thatās the worst kind of pain I have can offer, I believe. Iāve lost a lot of people to. Provoked my delving into near death experiences, Dolores cannon, the convoluted universeā¦ Itās all super interesting. When you have so many people around the world with similar storiesļæ¼ā¦ common themes about the afterlife show up. Thereās too many commonalities to dismiss
I donāt want to die but I often feel that I just want to pause my existence for some timeš«
I spent a lot of my life wishing it away but now I want to live. And live well. Iām glad I was never successful at ending it. I couldnāt see that things could ever be better but they are. Hang in there and take care of yourself - you really do deserve it
Yep! I am over the hill for my family's life expectancy, my life goals couldn't come true, I spend every day trying to keep up with the chore of living. I'm in severe chronic pain. I've never feared dying, I actually have a fear of living, especially beyond 60, or even having an eternal life. TERRIFYING. I am content with what I have done with my life and am over it. Maybe that will change, but I doubt it. Aging will just start hitting me faster and harder now.
I have had my moments. I would like to disappear. Do you feel like you want to die everyday? No, judgment, promise. Why? What is causing so much pain that death is your only option now? My father committed suicide. I was 21, he was and addict, he enabled my addiction, but he was my best friend and he was my dad. I always knew I would be the one to find him. In my gutā¦ the night it happened I knew something was wrong. I said it. His last words he got to hear were that I loved him, he was my hero, and I will always be his baby girl. He is my superman! He left a note, he wanted better for me and didnāt know how else to give it to me or another option to end this pain, suffering, and shame of what he was doing to his daughter. ( drugs donāt want anyone speculating something else from that statement). You ever drop a rock in still water. And you see the ripples that happen after that stone is dropped. That is what suicide does. Itās the rock and the ripples are the effects you leave for those you love. Even with a note, didnāt make it better, because he wasnāt here. I thought if I was a better daughter, he would have wanted to live. No matter what the choice is yours and than up to God. I am not one to think that itās damning your soul to help, In the last moment, you ask for forgiveness for all that has been pulling you to death; you are forgiven. I am not condoning taking oneselfās life. There is help and there is HOPE! Even in the darkest of places only a spark need to light the way. You are loved, you are worth love, and you deserve to be happy. Knowing first hand the effects of suicide on those close to you, know this you will leave questions that will never get answered, you leave people who love you the most blame and shame themselves into making sense of the situation, and you give the most important thing up-life. You canāt know happiness with out sadness. You canāt know dirty until you get clean. So you canāt know things wonāt change if you always stay the same. Look for hope inside the spark is there. Take care. You can reach out to me anytime sgarbe0702@icloud.com. Just know you are not alone. Honestly, if it wasnāt for the pain I felt from the choice my dad made, I would have made the same choice a while ago; after my relapse after four years. The hurt and pain it causes; I would never want to do that to my children, my mother, my siblings, and all those I love. Death is permanent, you can't go back once it's done. I will never forget the look him his eyes: FEAR. He died ALONE, probably scared, and maybe guilty. I wouldn't want to go out like that, do you? We are more than our pain and life isn't easy but life is beautiful, even in the ugly. Blessings. love. HOPE
Once it becomes a serious option in your mind, it's ALWAYS an option. Most days, it's not a serious option, but it's an option nonetheless
I would often feel like I just wanted to stop playing the game; of apologizing for being late, missing key pieces of information and my emotional disregulation. It can be frustrating and sometimes overwhelming to always feel like youāre working twice as hard to almost keep up with expectations. Medication and therapy, have been extremely helpful, but what seems to have the most affect, with me, is finding other like minded individuals and hearing their experienceās. Finding a job that isnāt so taxing on executive functions is me next goal. In short realizing other people are going through it, sharing and hearing stories with those people and finding a new environment vs changing myself to fitā¦I hope you canāt find some distance from thoughts of wanting to die, itās struggle for sure but you are not alone
I don't necessarily want to die everyday, but most days I do wish I wasn't alive if you can make sense of that
Itās not that you want to die, but You want to stop feeling this way. I want to be able to regulate my emotions and so thing in time so I can be more loving and useful. Very often I think my familyās better off without me but its not true. You have to decide to live for who you love.
I downloaded a bunch of apps to help me feel better. I find the lack of contact friends make with me very difficult as well as knowing the stigma around adhd. Realising my brain is different and using a lot of different apps to help me understand it including this one is helping me slowly as I have found it hard to find a suitable psych. I just focus on trying to use my apps each day and trying to improve my breathing by slowly improving the state of the house, aka trying to do the dishes each day. Apart from that I just rest and know I will use the apps each day and maybe some day I will feel better, or Iāll run out of money and leave and will have to return to work where I do not feel valued. However since the pay is high and contact with others is behind glass (corona friendly) I continue to work there since bills are so high. I dream of loving a job and not feeling crappy. Sorry you also feel crappy.
Can you tell us which apps you find helpful and why? Me for example I also subscribed to rise sleep (which someone could have given me the 30 day test phase instead of the regular 7 but..) however- it really works! My sleep deficit is finally a lot lower than usual and magically- my heartrate is just SO calm the last days.. which is wie because sorrows and letters from the employment agency really made me nervous š¬
Can you tell us which apps you find helpful and why? Me for example I also subscribed to rise sleep (which someone could have given me the 30 day test phase instead of the regular 7 but..) however- it really works! My sleep deficit is finally a lot lower than usual and magically- my heartrate is just SO calm the last days.. which is wie because sorrows and letters from the employment agency really made me nervous š¬
Can you tell us which apps you find helpful and why? Me for example I also subscribed to rise sleep (which someone could have given me the 30 day test phase instead of the regular 7 but..) however- it really works! My sleep deficit is finally a lot lower than usual and magically- my heartrate is just SO calm the last days.. which is wie because sorrows and letters from the employment agency really made me nervous š¬
I am proud to say Iāve never felt this way. I just donāt understand it and I feel sympathy for those who experience it. I have always see. Life as a thing with endless possibilities, and something magical. Sometimes I feel like I donāt have a long enough life span to do everything I want to.
Iām exhausted of trying to make something work in my favor, I put 110% effort in to everything and instead of a positive return on investment, life decides to shit on me. Causing me to have low self confidence and a lack of any kind of motivation to do anything āgoodā for my self. I talk to a psychologist every week and a psychiatrist every month or so to try a different concoction of pills. Nothing works. Still unmotivated to do anything besides sleep, go to work and oh my bills. If this is what life is going to be for my entire life I donāt want it. Waking up in general has always been a big battle for me ever since I was a child. I didnāt want to live in the real world I wanted to stay asleep in my dreams. Which is odd because I donāt have dreams when I sleep. But I do know that I have mental peace and I donāt feel the elephant of anxiety sitting on my chest
Not sure if you mean like, you want to skip the day, or really die. Either way, I've been in both places. If you feel like life is not worth living: it will get better, and there is help. This app is a good place to vent and have open conversations.
Man, I feel for you all. š«ā¤ļøāš©¹ check out tony Robbins priming, Wayne dyer, Louise hay, fb groups, so many great things on YouTube! Always feel free to reach out to me 1(262)945-2383 or nicholasblees@gmail.com you are not as alone as you think. Itās never too late to start again. Stay strong šāāļø ā please just wait. Suicide hurts so many more than you might think of and itās tough. Share your story with the world and shine on you crazy diamond šāÆļø thank you āŗļø
the people iād hurt with it are the reason iām still here lol bc if it wouldnāt hurt anyone iād long me gone since i canāt find a sense in life (not just my life tho i canāt find a sense in mine i guess since life itself kinda seems pointless to me specially the human existence) but i somehow have been a little better lately