Hi! First of all, thank you for the time you took to write me your advice, I appreciate it! 🖤
Now, the part where it is tricky is that I know his favourite snacks, his favourite hobby, that he has started raising chickens and many more things as this has been going on a few painful months.
Initially, he was really closed off as was I, because he is the best friend of my boss (drama much?) And I didn't know what to make of him... but as time passed and we bonded over music and other stuff, we opened up a lot.
The thing is that he had suggested he come over to my house but I was very self conscious because of how small it was (just a bedroom with a small bathroom) and I told him as such. I suggested that he could take me to his house but he said to me that he still lives with his parents and is also uncomfortable with that...
After many interactions and when I say many I mean it, he got drunk and came over at work on his day off to see me where he kissed me, something I couldn't really process to be honest.
That's the only time he has been really expressive about his feelings, and I'll never forget it and I thought we were gonna be more expressive to each other in general.
In the end, it doesn't matter. He is a lost cause, he is immature despite his age and he is never gonna communicate like a human being with me.
There is also the matter of our manager who is a really close friend of his, that has admitted of being in love with me openly and privately and who initially tried to get us together but kind of put a wedge between us one time but we got through that I think...