You are not a bad writer. Keep fighting it's going to be better, it's good that you can talk to your friends and your family about your point of view of things. Try to remember that you are perfect just the way that you are.
AuDHD is i combination of autism and ADHD.
I saw this on social media the other day "we only have this disease because we can handle it" they are talking about Lupus but it applies here to, we have ADHD and you have autism to because we can handle it.
It's going to be hard some times but you have try to remember that you are PERFECT just the way you are!

Hi! I’m Tay, and I have ADHD(duh). I am 14, and have been diagnosed with ADHD since I was about six… and my parents just found out I have level one autism last week… and I’m like what? I know it’s crazy, because I’ve been diagnosed with adhd for about 8 years, and showed that I probably have autism too. Most people are mean about having autism in my school, so I’m trying to keep it only in my friend group and with family. It’s really hard to explain (mentally) how they knew I have autism. They said I have AuDHD(I think that’s what it’s called.) that is where I have ADHD and Autism. So,yeah 😝