Period and Autism

I’m a trans men and that means my period is already a horrible experience for me but today my symptoms are over the roof and I feel like I’ve been having a meltdown internally all day already. For example, I’m at my friends place rn and I forgot my plastic cutlery (i have a deep sensory struggle with metal, especially if my body has to touch it) so when we made food i felt like crying and screaming bc it felt impossible to deal with this situation, i was able to suppress my panic but idk how many more times I can do that. I also don’t wanna stress my friend tho, even tho he said it’s okay if I’m struggling rn. Expect for that, I can’t sleep bc my mind is way too active but I’m physically too exhausted to do something to distract my mind. I’m frustrated and unhappy no matter what I do and if I wouldn’t be with my friend rn I would’ve already broken down and started self-harming behaviour…obviously I’m trying to avoid a external meltdown but I feel like it’s unstoppable today and that’s really scary.