I'm not alone after all!!
I am new to this site and, well, new to this disease, this condition, this infliction. I'm not sure what they refer to it as but I was recently diagnosed with it....AT 56 YEARS OLD! That is hard for me to believe. And my doctor informed me I have a pretty serious case of it. I'm a damn mess is what I am, and I have no idea how I made it this far without some help! That's where you all come in. I stumbled on this app, and I have been reading your posts from earlier today and realized I'm not so alone after all. I became medically "disabled" 10 years ago and lost my amazing job because I went a year without service. My body was giving out on me. In the course of a year, I had a foot of my colon removed and was hospitalized for 32 days, I had a total right knee replacement with a revision surgery 5 months later and a complete hip replacement. I have rheumatoid arthritis, psoriatic arthritis and fibromyalgia, to name a few. In 2020, my husband of 20 years left me for a younger woman that works in the cafeteria at his workplace. Now, my days are spent caring for my 2 dogs, depressed, hurting physically and mentally, and I'm truly losing any source of joy I ever had. I do have a boyfriend who treats me wonderfully but I never want to leave the house anymore. I feel so inadequate, I feel as though I'm in the early stages of Alzheimer's disease because I can't remember anything anymore. If you knew what I did when I worked, you would understand my concern. I was really busy, multitasking, and memory was not a problem. Boy, it sure is now! That's what took me to the doc and she tested me for the ADHD. Trying to find help is hard. There's soooo much information out there but what's the helpful info and what's not so helpful? I signed up for SENSA but my sign on info doesn't work and it's just another THING I forget to address. It's a problem so I avoid it. I don't even know who I am anymore. This is not me. Any advice or guidance, maybe something that worked for you, I don't know. I just feel so lost and alone. My mom recently passed away and my siblings are all fighting and I'm just trying to figure out ME so I haven't even told any of them yet. I'm not sleeping (its currently 3:02 am in florida) or eating properly. I'm all out of whack and I need a "reboot!" Help?? Please? Thanks in advance! Christie