I'm not alone after all!!

I am new to this site and, well, new to this disease, this condition, this infliction. I'm not sure what they refer to it as but I was recently diagnosed with it....AT 56 YEARS OLD! That is hard for me to believe. And my doctor informed me I have a pretty serious case of it. I'm a damn mess is what I am, and I have no idea how I made it this far without some help! That's where you all come in. I stumbled on this app, and I have been reading your posts from earlier today and realized I'm not so alone after all. I became medically "disabled" 10 years ago and lost my amazing job because I went a year without service. My body was giving out on me. In the course of a year, I had a foot of my colon removed and was hospitalized for 32 days, I had a total right knee replacement with a revision surgery 5 months later and a complete hip replacement. I have rheumatoid arthritis, psoriatic arthritis and fibromyalgia, to name a few. In 2020, my husband of 20 years left me for a younger woman that works in the cafeteria at his workplace. Now, my days are spent caring for my 2 dogs, depressed, hurting physically and mentally, and I'm truly losing any source of joy I ever had. I do have a boyfriend who treats me wonderfully but I never want to leave the house anymore. I feel so inadequate, I feel as though I'm in the early stages of Alzheimer's disease because I can't remember anything anymore. If you knew what I did when I worked, you would understand my concern. I was really busy, multitasking, and memory was not a problem. Boy, it sure is now! That's what took me to the doc and she tested me for the ADHD. Trying to find help is hard. There's soooo much information out there but what's the helpful info and what's not so helpful? I signed up for SENSA but my sign on info doesn't work and it's just another THING I forget to address. It's a problem so I avoid it. I don't even know who I am anymore. This is not me. Any advice or guidance, maybe something that worked for you, I don't know. I just feel so lost and alone. My mom recently passed away and my siblings are all fighting and I'm just trying to figure out ME so I haven't even told any of them yet. I'm not sleeping (its currently 3:02 am in florida) or eating properly. I'm all out of whack and I need a "reboot!" Help?? Please? Thanks in advance! Christie

ParabolicHeater

I’m loving this!

Jbird

One day at a time.... heck, sometimes one breath at a time. Just know your not alone. I've had a long hard road in life with trauma and conflict at every corner so I understand loss and hurt. Take care of yourself and know you are not alone!!!

imommy31

I have read, and some may disagree, but I have read from some experts that ADHD (or if you always had it but it has been exacerbated lately) can be due to trauma that you have not healed through yet. You have listed many traumas in your life here, and I’m sure there are more that you’re not aware of as there are for all of us. I think if you do not have a good therapist, now would be the time to seek that out. They can help you with this emotional part of it. This app is great for executive functioning and community support but some of us need intense one-on-one work with a professional to get down to the root of our mental blocks and inner voice. If you’re having memory problems that are beyond what you believe could stem from ADHD, I would also check out the link to nutrition. Alzheimer’s and the like are linked largely to gut imbalance and long-time low stomach acid due to the SAD (standard American Diet) which is horrible for us in every way. There are so many diseases caused by lack of nutrition. A functional doctor would be able to test you for a myriad of things that could be causing memory issues. And sleep as well. Sleep is hard when you’re neurodivergent but there are simple things that can make it better. Limiting caffeine during the day, complete dark, white nose, no blue light (I.e. tv, computer, phone, etc) 1-2 hours before bed, reading right before bed, deep breathing, meditation, not eating before bed, there’s more.. hoping things work out for you, I’m 35 and just now realizing I know it’s quite the same but I feel jipped and cheated, all this time no one noticed, I could’ve been so much more productive if I’d gotten the help I needed. You’re not alone 💜

pickles

It took me until my life slowed down when my kids got older to realize the only reason I wasn't noticing my symptoms was because I did have soooo much to do and keep track of. I honestly think that because of my ADHD I could go all of that. Once the need for 20 thoughts at a time was gone, my ADHD was obvious. Just wanted to commiserate with you!

forgetably4u

You are really on to something there. Thank you.

CometOfTheNights

Hey Christie. I am sorry for what you have been all through. 😔 ADHD is a condition that unfortunately who is not an ADHDer cannot know and understand even though they say they do... I don't have an advice for you. But, if it helps, I would like to state that the people of Numo understand. U will be understood from now on 🤍🥲

forgetably4u

Thank you so much. I feel like I finally have someone. My boyfriend just chalks it up to me being a crazy woman!! "Isn't every woman crazy?" (Inject a full beer belly laugh here)((and it ain't MINE))! 🤣

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