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My walls have walls ... with a moat and piranhas. So yeah, a bit.

Hella

Definitely. Just afraid that everything goes another way, different from the one I see, and they all are just kidding me. After a case when I had to go to another town (the war had just started, so me and my sis had to help with friend’s pets transition) and my bf all of the sudden accused me of that and started living with someone else, I got worse with my trust in general, even though we worked out the whole situation and now we’re together without any issues for what I pray every day. I am afraid of being betrayed and pushed out of the community which is still not as friendly as it is towards my bf. I learn how to trust myself, but it’s also really hard while the closest people are telling me mean things in regards to my atypical mindset and everyday struggle with putting myself into working hustle. If it’s not important as much as I feel, why it’s so hurtful then? But while they’re feeling down, I always cheer them up and try to hear all of their concerns. I learn quitting expectations, that’s a great work and even greater superpower, but it also exhausts af.

Yes, I have abandonment issues from my father. I see how it affects my life. I have trust issues too, and betrayals from close friends- it’s closed me off to attempt to make new friends. My friends are pets and plants lately

What is RSD?

Super think people are just against me at all times.

ADHD can be one diagnosis, but you may have trauma in you past that had caused PTSD. I’m diagnosed with PTSD, ADHD, and Anxiety so I have horrible trust issues even when I’m surrounded by incredible humans. So talk with a Psychiatrist in order to get a diagnosis. Then you can work with a therapist to develop coping strategies. If you’d like to chat more you can message me. 😊 scary to not trust anyone …. Including yourself.

Everyone seems like I’m a terrible person because I don’t even really trust those who are close to me, when you let me down everytime I put faith in you your kinda asking to loose my trust

I definitely have trust issues. I have discovered that I don't only have trust issues with others, I especially have trust issues within myself. This was an eye-opening discovery and has helped me strengthen my trust as I build a relationship with myself. I have come a long way, but still struggle at times.

I think RSD causes trust issues and it's pretty common. IMO