If you have a spare moment, please

Hi everyone, I’m 21 and.. only just come to the conclusion that I could have adhd. I never googled or understood adhd before and it’s left me feeling quite shocked, there’s a lot I didn’t know. I’ve booked to see a specialist but I wanted to share and talk to you because I would not like to google further at this point. I struggle with reading, find bruises all over all the time and forget things like.. well like there’s no yesterday. I feel utterly lost in my mind with no memories. In fights with my boyfriend I often struggle to diffuse a situation because I forget what I am talking about with my partner and then I shut down because there’s no way for me to know where to go next in the argument. So instead of having a healthy one he feels like he’s lost and on his own and I feel quite alone too. If you are comfortable, can you please share your experience healing with your partner or if you experience this pattern? Or perhaps let me know if you identify with any of these and how you manage?